September 12, 2024

Article highlights:

  • What is my “IT”?
  • Paving my own way

As I’ve mentioned, Spirit has been nudging me to broaden what I share with others.  I’ve resisted this.  Why?

I haven’t wanted a big picture, or wished for a big following.  I don’t believe bigger is necessarily better.  It doesn’t stir me.

As you’ve likely noticed, I don’t work social media or sell you things very often.  I’ve been quite content to be sharing here with you and doing private sessions, working by referral.   

Creating an ambitious project, goal or idea takes a lot of building, posting, liking, telling and selling.  And producing more and more STUFF to keep building, posting, telling, selling and producing.  It takes a lot followers, A LOT, to keep that boat afloat.  And requires continuous sweat equity.  And a good support team.

I have some very famous friends who have networks of famous friends who would share their experience and platforms to help me do that.  However, as you’ve noticed, in the last many years I’ve only appeared irregularly and in smaller ways.  

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t judge those who want to have big platforms.  I’m very happy they want to.  I support them when I can.  I admire them for doing so.  But it’s not for me at this stage.

I prefer my picture to remain easily managed.  I like it to have the potential to stay SMALL.  That suits me.  BUT.

Here’s the problem: the nudges haven’t stopped.  Those on the inner continue to encourage me to share more expansively. They have not grown quieter about that, quite the opposite.  So what to do?  

What are they on about?  What do they mean?  Do what?  That’s what they want ME to figure out.  As well as how to do it my way, without a lot of yah yah, rah-rah.   That’s up to me.  Figure it out, gal.

OK, I’m willing to broaden what I do in some way. 

How do I achieve that?  What am I meant to share more of, exactly?
That’s what I’ve been circling around lately.  

It’s been confusing.  I’m clearly being called into greater action.  What that means isn’t defined.  Exactly what and how is not clear.  My discovery process has felt like groping in the dark.  I’m not finding it easy.  Mostly because I’m overthinking, of course.  But that’s part of the process.

In a host of ways I’m sweating and fretting as I puzzle my way through.  My mind has chased in circles, you can be sure.  I get off track, overwhelmed. I want it to happen faster and it’s not, which is frustrating.  I wish someone else would solve this.  They can’t.  You’ve been there, you can relate.  Not knowing is uncomfortable. 

Fact: The path to clarity is paved with confusion. 

Thankfully, I’ve just discovered a secret ancient principle (joking here.)  It’s called KISS: “Keep it simple silly.”  That’s the big AHA this week.  Simple is often not easy to arrive at!  It usually takes surrender.

I might finally be glimpsing the obvious, lol. By next week I hope to have a bit of progress to report.  I’ll share, if so.  

For now, I’m still making-mountains-out-of-molehills.  But that’s shifting, I see glimmers of simplicity.  I’m hopeful.  Fingers crossed, dear ones, fingers crossed.

Love, as always,
Mayet Leilani

 
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