Journey Into Health

“Of course, everyone wants to be healthy. The amusing thing is no one’s really sure how to do it.”
~ Jerry Seinfeld

In the previous installment in this series on health, I finished with this, “Is the miracle of continuous perfect health not possible?”   Hmm.  Let’s talk about that now.

With that question in mind, I feel primed to start sharing information I have about the healing potential of today that hasn’t been available to us in the same way before.  I was surprised to feel that a review of my healing process – and our collective’s – was called for instead.

While for some readers it will be important new information, it’s going to be Health 101 for many of you, though probably entertaining because of it’s personal nature.  As I delved into my own story, however, I began to see the wisdom in reviewing where we have been.  To answer the question about continuous perfect health, it’s good to understand more fully just how much we have gained in the past by submitting to a process of healing.

Journey into Health

In retrospect, I might say my soul orchestrated a divorce for me in 1982, but at the time I had no such comforting understanding. Deeply frightened and uncertain about my ability to care for my children and myself, my situation felt desperate to me. Lacking means, education or job experience, and with no resources to fight for child support in the courts, I felt severely handicapped.

I questioned what the opportunities were in this difficult situation. Through my meditations I realized they were to be found in possessing the vast source of my own unique strength, becoming reliable and trustworthy to myself, and in becoming emotionally and physically whole. Thus began a 8-year journey from the dark of fear into the lightness of personal freedom.

It was a time of great upheaval for me as I submitted to my soul’s agenda to cleanse the old emotional and mental ways of being. There was much confusion, and the deep-welling turmoil of a powerfully resistant ego thrashing about. Lacking new tools, not clear yet about where all the old baggage was, and only moderately capable of radical self-honesty, it was a difficult period. There were many tears. I often found it difficult to sit still for the process I was in, preferring actions that would distract me.

On one especially difficult morning, I suddenly jumped in my truck and drove two hundred and fifty miles to the nearest big city to see friends, go to a movie, and avoid the issue that was prodding me. Upon arrival I realized what I had done. Seeing my self-ruse and sensing that a breakthrough was near, I got back in my truck and immediately drove home. On the five-hour return trip, I asked myself, “What am I trying to avoid?”  I examined the pain in my life.  What were the new patterns needed?  How could I change?  I arrived home with many answers that enabled me to move ahead.

Learning to Surrender

Just as I began to stabilize, somewhat, in my ability to look more honestly within me, my attention was called urgently to my health. The constant fear, stress, emotional pain, and financial desperation collided with genetics, poor diet, and lack of sleep and exercise. After suffering some heart problems, I realized something was seriously amiss. Though only forty years old, my cholesterol was over 750 and unresponsive to any medications; there were indications of damage to my heart muscle, my fatigue was consuming, and I suffered from angina. The medical advice was drastic, invasive colon surgery, which made no sense to me and I felt a clear mistrust of it, and besides, I had no money or insurance for the treatment.

This was a major wake-up call; I had to wonder to what purpose. Having come to a willingness to seize responsibility for my life and dream it differently no matter the obstacles, to do whatever it took to create the change, I was now unable, physically, to take any action at all. I was required to surrender and to relinquish my methods of “doing.”

When I sought the advice of my own wisdom, I understood to seek deep solitude and rest. My brother offered me an old cabin on his wife’s family homestead. It was remote and, though it had electricity, it lacked plumbing entirely. It was basically one small room and quite rudimentary. I had to haul water from town in five-gallon jugs, and there was an outhouse in back. At this time, Jewel was at Interlochen Arts Academy, Shane was in college, and Atz Lee was with his father, so I retreated to the cabin and invited my soul to lead my life, entirely.

For nine months I lived quietly there in full surrender. My focus was on cleaning house — cleaning out detrimental mental and emotional patterns, and cleansing my body. Medication and diet had failed to improve my health in any way, but this focused communion with spirit and clearing of unhealthy emotional and mental habits brought startling improvements. My cholesterol dropped significantly, and I began to mend.

The path of healing mentally, emotionally, and physically has been one of the main pillars of my own spiritual journey and I suspect the same may well be true of you.  So, when it comes to healing we must ask ourselves…

• Is continual perfect health the only desirable goal?
• Are we saying it is never ever desirable to be ill?
• Are we saying there’s something inherently wrong with being ill?
• Are we saying every one should be healed and live forever?
• Are we actually saying that if the healer doesn’t heal someone they have failed, and if you don’t heal immediately, you have failed?

Well, well, aren’t these good questions! I’ll leave you to them, and the many implications and answers, because I know you have a fine and inquiring mind interested in fuller truth than we may initially tell our self.

Have fun with that and see you next time for a little more about health as we continue toward some wonderful and timely revelations about instantaneous healing. 2015 is the year of healing.  It will be much on your mind in the months to come.

To your good health!

Ma HuLiLi

Health is a state of complete physical, mental and social well-being and not merely the absence of disease or infirmity. The enjoyment of the highest attainable standard of health is one of the fundamental rights of every human being without distinction of race, religion, political belief, economic or social condition.

— World Health Organization

NOTE: This article is, in part, an excerpt from my book,

The Architecture of All Abundance.

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